I just walked by my abuser and I didn't react like I thought and now I'm freaking out

2020.11.25 18:20 sexualpropaganda I just walked by my abuser and I didn't react like I thought and now I'm freaking out

I was in the city with my friend to buy Christmas gifts. Apparently he works in a store we passed. We had eye contact quick, but it happened so fast that none of us even made a face. It was only a few moments after he had walked by me that I realized it was him, because he was wearing a mask.
I feel so so stupid that I didn't say any of the things I have been preparing in my head. Was that dumb? He has been saying things behind my back since the assault and I have always wanted to have him know that I know! But I didn't. I feel like a coward and I hate myself. I have so much anxiety and I can't calm down.
It was a minor assault, the things he did afterwards were almost way way worse than the assault itself. Everyone I know who knows him well call him a twisted person, psychopath, overall not nice things. I just don't want to loose her, I already lost so so many things to him and he has ruined my life in some ways.
Idk what this post is I'm just alone with all these thoughts and feelings and don't know what to do, ruminating whether I should have just turned around and gone after him and said some things.
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2020.11.25 18:20 PureOakGaming Why I switched to Valorant.

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2020.11.25 18:20 kofan3678 AJ face down and ass up

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2020.11.25 18:20 I_did_dit 2020 Gift Guide: Under $100

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2020.11.25 18:20 Affectionate-Sail-90 Period pee

Ok so this is like my 5th period. Is it normal when you pee on your period for u to pee blood??
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2020.11.25 18:20 minkietwinkie Can anyone help identify this crystal? I bought it from my local metaphysical store and forgot to write down the name.

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2020.11.25 18:20 Delegator-PPC-Agency What Are Y'all's BFCM strategies?

Raising budgets? Switched up Bidding Strategies? Just letting it run as is? Better option?
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2020.11.25 18:20 I_did_dit Ivanka Trump and Jared Kushner prepare NJ home for arrival

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2020.11.25 18:20 braydenNow Trading 3 ride potions for s kangaroo or turtle

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2020.11.25 18:20 Digdiscount Limited Time Special - $25 Diamonds 1/10 CTTW, Reg $124.98 | JCPenney Affiliate

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2020.11.25 18:20 GelatinousCubesDice Pegasus D20!

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2020.11.25 18:20 katharmata --Ανέκδοτο: Οι ξανθιές και το Μέντιουμ …! Πολύ γέλιο

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2020.11.25 18:20 siddhant1991 3 crazy jokes

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2020.11.25 18:20 yurinmds Dynmap not working with Tuinity?

Dynmap not working with Tuinity? Has anyone managed to use the standalone dynmap with Tuinity?
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2020.11.25 18:20 Deweyfinnrocks Realizing how my Nmom conditioned me.

Growing up it was just my mom and I and I was told and known that we weren’t rich by any means my mom didn’t pay me an allowance and I didn’t even know that was a thing till the kids at school and TV shows said something about it and started bragging about theirs, if I wanted money I would have to sell my stuff at garage sells and mow my grandmas lawn I mainly mowed because I love her and since my grandfather passed away when I was a kid I didn’t want my grandma out there in the heat mowing so I would do it for her. I moved out of my moms house 2-3 years ago and even to this day when I spend my money I literally have to explain to my roommates WHY I NEED to spend my money on the things Iam spending it on, food and bills are excused but if I want a book I have to explain and rationalize buying a fuck’n 5-10 dollar book ! This goes with everything I want not just books, video games, my guitar strings, buying a guitar, a pedal, my roommates literally don’t give a shit and they say that each and everytime that I could buy 5 pounds of gummy bears if I wanted they don’t care but I thought about this last night and came to a conclusion. My mom literally didn’t want me to have any fun, hobbies/interests, didn’t want me to learn life skills, and even made me feel bad about having friends because she hardly have any of these things if any at all and she was miserable so in turn she wanted me to feel and act that way as well, she made me feel bad about me being my own person with my own identity and made me feel guilty about spending money on fun things because she herself couldn’t have fun and be a fun person.
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2020.11.25 18:20 SynT8735 ATM6 - Loading times

Hi there, I just finished some tests on the modpack "All the Mods 6" regarding loading times here are some of the results:
Main PC Specs CPU: i7-7700 RAM: 16GB DDR4-2133 GPU: GTX 1050 Ti HDD: ST3500414CS 500GB SSD: Maxtor Z1 SSD 240GB
Allocated Memory: 8192MB
Additional Java Arguments
-d64 -server -XX:+AggressiveOpts -XX:ParallelGCThreads=3 -XX:+UseConcMarkSweepGC -XX:+UnlockExperimentalVMOptions -XX:+UseParNewGC -XX:+ExplicitGCInvokesConcurrent -XX:MaxGCPauseMillis=10 -XX:GCPauseIntervalMillis=50 -XX:+UseFastAccessorMethods -XX:+OptimizeStringConcat -XX:NewSize=84m -XX:+UseAdaptiveGCBoundary -XX:NewRatio=3 -Dfml.readTimeout=90 -Ddeployment.trace=true -Ddeployment.log=true -Ddeployment.trace.level=all
Changes to the modpack
Removed:
- mcw-bridges-1.0.4-mc1.16.4.jar
- mcw-doors-1.0.1fix-mc1.16.4.jar
- mcws-roofs-2.0.0-mc1.16.4.jar
- mcw-trapdors-1.0.0-mc1.16.4.jar
- mcw-windows-1.0.2-mc1.16.4.jar
- ratlantis-1.0.0-1.16.3.jar
- rats-7.0.1-1.16.3.jar
- mahoutsukai-1.16.4-v1.25.5.jar
HDD
03:54:04 to load minecraft
02:46:25 to load my world
SSD
03:34:99 to load minecraft
03:02:28 to load my world (1# Attempt)
02:46:47 to load my world (2# Attempt)
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2020.11.25 18:20 You_R_O_C_K I guess we all learned the lesson, right?

I got sunburned on Sunday. Since last night I’ve been feeling like there are dozens of ants biting my arms. It must be the worst itching I’ve ever had. At least now I realize even more how important sunscreen is.
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2020.11.25 18:20 Ultimategamer50 Tribute to legendary MARADONA

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2020.11.25 18:20 jfoxindy Room for one more kitty just in time for the club event! DM me for more info☺️💜

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2020.11.25 18:20 300FeetPerSecond Anyone Willing to Summon Me to Help With a Boss? (PS5)

I just need the one trophy for my platinum but I seemingly have totally outleveled my ability to use the blue sign and do this organically. If someone could summon me so I can help kill any boss I would greatly appreciate it. PSN: Farsoth
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2020.11.25 18:20 JaxoJacobLebeau ErnieStrips: Part 1(?)

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2020.11.25 18:20 JohnnyBlaze- Fin the whale appreciation post! I don't know where this org would be without his hard work, dedication and inspiring persona. He's out there everyday giving it 100% and I don't see him loved enough on this sub!!

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2020.11.25 18:20 CatsGhost [LF] Mush and maple DIYs [FT] bells, NMTs

Looking for the following DIYs;
Mush:
Mush log
Mush low stool
Mush wall
Forest wall
Mushroom wand
Maple:
Maple leaf umbrella
Maple leaf pochette
Leave your price in the comments!
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2020.11.25 18:20 cafeconlechelord is this derealization?

let me start this off by saying that i’m a 19 y.o girl and i have really severe anxiety and depression, but lately things have been getting better. i started smoking weed again about two months ago after YEARS of not smoking due to a bad high. i usually smoke with my friends and i smoke two other times with an my ex. last night he invited me out to smoke again after a month of no contact and i said sure, but he didn’t want to buy weed from the guy we usually go to. i had a bad feeling about this but thought “it’s my ex, he won’t hurt me”. well i took several hits but not even enough to finish the blunt and i started feeling a little too high. at one point i started laughing and suddenly i felt like i fell asleep for a split second and woke up in a dream. i felt like i could see my body sleeping in bed and i was living out the dream. i began to panic and everything felt fake, i kept looking back to see if the buildings were still and every time i looked i got the sensation you get when you see something for the first time. but i knew they were there ? well that panic attack and sense of feeling like i was outside my body lasted me for about an hour and a half until i went home and slept. this morning i woke up and i now feel better, i’m more conscious of my surroundings and understand that i am in fact alive, but i feel strange. i feel numb, i feel like time is passing by so so slowly, i feel dead. i’m so scared and frightened by all this, it’s so intense and i’m so worried i’ll never go back to feeling normal. is this derealization ? and how do i get over it ? will i ever get over it ? was the weed laced ? someone please give me advice, i’m not sure if this feeling is something others have felt as well
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2020.11.25 18:20 JustBrilliant9 Hit the link!!! Permanent follow for follow!!!

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