2021.03.02 18:16 easyas69 Well on top of probably some BPD being raised by a narcissistic parent, I do in fact have a bit a( slightly underserved)bad reputation in a small town. The rejection / shunning cuts me really bad and it's part of my life.
I am basically someone that suffers from abandonment issues and is very sensitive to how others treat me. It drives me nuts when someone doesn't make eye contact when out for a walk or ignores my messages or friend requests on Facebook.
So I a bit of showman, I was involved with bands and stuff and I thing in this slightly close minded town I have, over time built up a bit of a reputation of a bit of a big mouth, or some are saying a "asshole", I won't get way into it but I get the feeling some jerks themselves have framed me just with interactions where I had to stand up to their bullying.
Now I am in a neighbourhood, I am quite popular in some ways but in others I am sort of covertly shunned. Like several important people in the arts community have friended me on Facebook and then defended me. I know not to look to much into it but your talking new people to town that friend everyone in the arts, and then de friend me only. I do pay to much attention. These people do mostly have a "hey how are you": thing when we rarely see each other, there is about 10 or so of them. Obviously I am on the blacklist and it is hurting not only my feels but my reputation or chances to do things. Of course nobody is going to tell me what is up, I figure they just hear things and drop me.
I guess this makes me feel awful. I am not going to stop being outspoken, political or funny.. or basically myself. But instead, I don't know how to handle this without nagging feelings of empty sadness...
Some of these people run a music festival I like to be part of, one works in my community with setting up bands.. they say high and pretend everything is cool but I am om the blacklist, when you get de friended out of the blue.
I don't know for instance if I should just stop talking to people that are secretly doing this to me, talk about it publicly about being shunned, pretend I don't notice. SO far I have pretend I don't notice but they are always around my life and it is obvious.
Another option I though was to pioneer a community event so they can feel left out, but what good would that do.
I am a grown man so this would seem silly to some, but this feeling of being shunned by some leaders in a community I need to survive if fucking torture to me.
Would it be weird to make a piece of righting about what it feels like to be shunned by them, name them and call it covert bullying that it is ?Or will that just draw attention to buy pathetic situation ?
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2021.03.02 18:16 Xener07 I have a question from medic main to medic main: i like using the kritzkreig and would like some advice on how to use it more safely and minimize the risk of dying during the Übercharge. Thanks to whoever can help
2021.03.02 18:16 ToddJustWorks Praise Todd Howard
2021.03.02 18:16 smonkchicken i 😂 cannot 😂 fucking 😂 take 😂 it 😂anymore 😂😂😂😂
2021.03.02 18:16 Saif178 Eesha Rebba
2021.03.02 18:16 NathanDV29 Are there still long lines of traffic getting into Auckland?
Heading back home to AKL after being on the road down south for a month. I was aiming to get back to Auckland on Friday. Have any of you been through the check point in the past 24 hrs? Are you in that traffic queue now? Looking for a real (ish) time update. Many thanks.
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2021.03.02 18:16 MaggieGirl092909 trading nfr griffin
2021.03.02 18:16 _saiya_ Never forgotten
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2021.03.02 18:16 Kurjak1738 Frustrated That We Can't Be Friends Or Maybe It's Me
Coworkers husband was upset with her as we text frequently. Hasn't been that frequent the last week or so. She mentions it to me on Friday, so I tell her that I'll stop texting her, but she says we can still talk while at work. The idea feels odd for me, I cant imagine that if her husband had issues with me, it would be okay if we keep texting while at work.
It's pretty frustrating as I see some funny stuff and I want to send it to her, but I can't. The idea of waiting till 09:00 AM the next day sounds ridiculous to me. While at work I slack off enough, heck I'm writing this now while at work instead of working. Last thing I need is to spend more time texting instead of working.
I also wonder if maybe she's lying and I just annoyed her and she made up this whole story so that I stop talking to her. I think I struggle making friends and maybe I clinge to the ones I make every now and then. Like, I cant imagine I'm the only person she texts. Maybe she's just tired of me.
Just feels crazy that I miss our prior conversations and she was helpful as she's a little older and things I'm dealing with my wife and kids, she's giving me advice from her perspective as the mom. I thought we got along well, but maybe I'm too needy.
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2021.03.02 18:16 reallyafriend Where to find a great b2b saas performance marketer?
We’re looking to hire a full time performance marketer. We’re a fast growing saas startup with some good initial traction on paid. This role will be mostly focused on SEM, where we know there’s a big opportunity, but will also need to be able to run ads and optimize on other interest based platforms like Facebook and LinkedIn.
In looking for someone with 3-5 years experience. B2b saas preferred - either in house or agency.
Any thoughts on where I should post? Anyone fit that description looking for a new job?
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2021.03.02 18:16 Rodrigonadur 3 Landorus raids starting now 6898 1212 1147 on mee
2021.03.02 18:16 teknorpi “Strand” - Oil - me - 2021 - 30x30”
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2021.03.02 18:16 MaartenFreriks Thanks to you Nick bought a toolkit to start sculpting again. Until he can sell his products, or his girlfriend finds a job, they still wander from place to place. Any support (or assignment) is welcome : https://www.internationalatheists.org/sponsor-nick
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2021.03.02 18:16 irishpanda745 Alternate bens?
Does anyone else think the other bens in omniverse were kinda silly cause they were just sorta made for a laugh such as mad Ben, Nega Ben and benzarro, Ben 23 was a good concept but excuted poorly my other problem is them all having the same transformations as Ben which is stupid because outside the original 10 all the transformations acquired were very situational like the recalibrated playlist, the andromeda aliens and nanomach and way big it would of Ben far more interesting to see different aliens since they went down a completely different timeline
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2021.03.02 18:16 KroZeY-YT Will my friends give me a £100? and hold a g*n for me? YOU WONT BELIVE WHAT THEY DID
2021.03.02 18:16 AnkitTakiya War Machine 😑
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2021.03.02 18:16 random-equation Another wallpaper attempt
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2021.03.02 18:16 _stonecat Sunset turn in the French Alps
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2021.03.02 18:16 ToddJustWorks Praise Todd Howard
2021.03.02 18:16 Poofmarshall New boards with a good stencil make all the difference!
2021.03.02 18:16 GeckioGaming (Better) Better Tree Growth
So recently I made a post on how tree growth should be updated in Minecraft, but I saw peoples views on it and decided to make it better. So, I present to you the (better) better tree growth.
STAGE 1- SEEDS/NUTS This is the first stage to planting trees now. Each tree would have their own seed, like acorns for oak trees. The seeds would be planted in dirt, and from there a sapling would grow. Seeds can be obtained by breaking tree leaves which the seeds will fall out of.
STAGE 2- SAPLING
This is what happens today. The sapling stage has the already existing models of saplings and closely resembles what happens today. The sapling then grows to the next stage...
STAGE 3- YOUNG TREE AND GROWING
Young trees are the base for the next growth cycle. The young trees are about 4 blocks tall and have only a few leaves. From their, the tree slowly grows new wood blocks and branches, as well as leaves until it reaches it's final state, the mature tree, which stops growing.
This is a much more simple than my previous suggestion. It gets rid of the sudden growth of trees while not making it long and overcomplicated. I hope you enjoy it more than the last one and thank you for reading.
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2021.03.02 18:16 techberg_ The next Gen iPhone SE with looks of iPhone 11
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2021.03.02 18:16 Twoods265 Behavior was like...(seriously tho, this dlc looks good so far)
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2021.03.02 18:16 Ms_Shams Trying a fashion shorts channel (any tips and recommendations is appreciated)
2021.03.02 18:16 ShineCalm8874 Hehe
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